February 22, finally we started to move our old furniture that we are not gonna take with us to our new home. After moving all the furniture I looked at my empty bedroom for a while.
I love going out but in the end, I always looked forward to coming home and lying down on my bed.
There was an old showcase in my room. Ammu stored toys from my and my brother's childhood. I used to love it a lot. Sometimes I used to just look at it and felt happy because those toys were the only thing I have from my childhood. When I was cleaning the showcase I felt like I was going through a memory lane. I don't remember the stories of each toy. But I remember some of them. I remember playing with them. It was too hard to throw any of them but I had to let go...
14 March, we got the key to our new home. It was a kinda emotional moment for us to see the key to our new home finally. I don't know what I was feeling at that moment. Lots of feelings were coming through.
16 March, the last day in this home. We are leaving tomorrow. It feels weird though. Because I like to stay in my comfort zones but now I've to make another comfort zone.
I've lived in this house for 16 years. The oldest memory I can remember was in this house. I remember the day when I went to school for the first time with Ammu and Abbu. I don't remember anything else but this one.
I knew for a long time that we are gonna leave soon. But I didn't feel anything at first. It hit me when I first saw that it was actually happening and I had to leave this place. I'm excited to move to our new house. At the same time, I'm sad that I've had to leave this place. From a kid roaming around the house to a college-going girl, I grew up here.
Although this was not just our house. This was Lussu's home, Lumi's home. This was Kiko and Kai's first home too. I can remember those days when they came to this house.
I couldn't sleep that night. I was looking at my room and remembering every memory in my room. In this house I cried, I broke down, I almost gave up, I almost lost. Yes almost. I won't say this was my favorite place. But this bedroom was one of my go-to places.
Though I hate packing, but this time packing was fun. I found so many old things of mine, so many memories of them.
What I'm gonna miss most about living here are my two special friends. My two dogs. I wish I could take them with me.
17 March, We moved out finally. The house feels smaller somehow. I had no idea what I was feeling.
You don't know how deeply you are intertwined with a place until you have to leave that place.
It's been 3 days in the house. It feels like I'm a guest here. Soon I'll go back to my old house. You all know the quote, 'Sometimes your heart needs time to accept something; your brain already knows. That's what is happening to me right now. Good things take time. So right now I'm hoping for good.
Kiko-Kai loves this house though. They play hide and seek now. At least they are enjoying it.
2weeks have passed. Still sometimes when I wake up in the morning and look around the room it feels weird. Then again sometimes my brain needs some time to remember everything after I wake up sometimes in the middle of the night forget that we moved here and I ask myself why I am here. Man, I miss my old bedroom.
Obviously, this house is better than the previous one. But that house will always be my 1st Home.
